It’s raining it’s pouring the old man is snoring….
I wished it had either not rained all day yesterday or that I like the old man I could have taken the kind of nap that causes you to snore.
I am sort of in a mini funk. I have gained weight since the marathon. I am 7 pounds, to be exact, higher than I would like to be. I no longer have the focus of a marathon in the near future and it is sort of bumming me out. I think I have the post marathon blues, coupled with the fact that I still am not getting enough sleep for what my body wants.
I have mentioned before that I have this silly thing called Gilbert’s Syndrome. One of the side effects is feeling exhausted ALL the time. On the days I do not run I feel especially exhausted. Running, contrary to what most non-runners would think, gives me energy. I need to run not because I want to be fit, or because I ate too much, or because I want to place high at a race – I need to run so I am a happy mommy and have the energy to chase my kids around all day. To play games, to do flashcards, to sing songs and be present in the moment for them.
I tried to muster up the energy to run last night when they were in bed but I wanted sleep more. As I brushed my teeth and felt sorry for myself I looked over at my charging Garmin and saw the time was 8:18.
Allot of people probably think my number thing is weird. I truly believe it is God’s way of speaking to me and His way of letting me know that everything is okay. He has a plan for my life and I need not worry. I smiled when I saw that 8:18. Tomorrow is a new day Dorothy – maybe it will not rain in the morning.
I needed some confidence today. I needed some energy. I decided I was going to attempt to break my double stroller PR I set earlier this week.
I do not typically decide things like this in advance. It makes my mind worry too much and the stress causes me to not perform well. I usually decide things very last minute when it comes to running and races. I hoped that by deciding in advance I would not cause my mind to be a hurdle to a PR.
Mile 1: 9:15
Mile 2: 9:02
Mile 3: 8:56
I felt like there were two people sitting on my shoulders. One was good telling me – it was humid – I was tired and that’s why my pace was slower than I expected it to be. The other was telling me – Dorothy face it – you can not PR today – you are loosing your fitness – you have gained too much weight – try to run fast another day.
Sad thing is that I almost listened to that little negative man.
Mile 4: 8:06
Okay here goes nothing….
Mile 5: 6:34 – for a new double stroller mile PR
BLISS. I needed a confidence boost today. I needed to remind my mind of my post from the other day. I was and am proud of my body for all it does – slow miles and fast miles alike. I need to run out of this little funk.
Mile 6: 7:54
God does indeed have a plan for my life. I need to remember to happy in the moment. Happy in all the moments, not just those that happen during marathon training.
I will admit though life has gotten WAY WAY harder with three children…..it definitely is better.
Is your mind a roadblock at times? How do you overcome this? Are there certain types of runs that give you confidence?